Go Deeper
He is like a cape over me. Planet Earth, oh, how you lead me to wonder and confusion
Teach me your way Lord, that I may rely on your faithfulness. Give me an undivided heart (Psalm 86)
*italicized = journal entries from my time in the Utah desert
*italicized = journal entries going deeper on the Race
“Waters of Grace”
I stood in boundless refreshing waters of grace
They go through every land and may they ever go deeper in me
May I know your heart deeper each passing moment, day, year
When I swim, when I float, when I sink into your bountiful Grace. A badge of truth, a breastplate of honor and righteousness
When I look at myself in the waters of Grace, endless for me to draw from and more vast than I could ever know, my skin takes on a new radiance and glow. The water of Grace and life cover my reality and make me glow anew
When I am submerged completely, where I cannot breathe the air I know, where memories of thousands of times I have been in the waters of Grace (and the waters of Powell with my family) are coming back to me, it is the only time when I don’t feel weight centering me
It is the only time where heavy burdens aren’t my gravity
His waters of Grace make me weightless and legitimately take my weight to lightness and wonder
Remember when I would see through the waters of Grace at G&G’s pool in childhood? I would look at the bubbles forming. Compact and disperse them as I touch the wall with my finger. I would spin and swirl, and still do in the waters of Grace
The rays shine clearly through in a way you can witness
Sometimes at the floors of the waters of Grace are more beautiful and wonderous beings and colors thriving to live
The waters of Grace are my life-line
Alone on some unusual adventure I cannot help but think in metaphor
Did you know God wondrously made Glen Canyon and, with it, history of the Natives and my Great Grandfather – vast canyon walls with discovery. Yet, man disturbed how it was made with their own structure
Their own structure redirected the waters of Grace to look different and flood the canyons of God’s intent
Even when sinful man disrupts God’s intent, the waters of Grace make something new and restored. God works with our mistake and evil and floods His waters of Grace anyway
Makes good out of evil. Grace upon Grace
You cannot out sin it, like Shawn said, He is relentless, you are never too far gone and messed up
From Indonesia to Thailand to Utah
One morning in Theon, Thailand our dreams and plans were shattered by a single email. Leaving this humble church, the day after arriving, in the middle of the service we were supposed to lead, I mustered up the courage and peace from God to pray out loud over them as they just did for us.
God is more determined, more faithful than you could ever know
You are actually, legitimately, completely free in Christ
Arriving back in Chiang Mai waiting for our flight plans, a beautiful, joyous, prophetic woman of God took us in again at her YYAM house.
I seriously do not know how I would have gotten through it all without her.
One instance of My presence can change everything. You have the capacity to give that. Don’t forget it
She led our sadness to praise and freedom. She had us take a physical step of faith together that we would not shrink back but arise as sons and daughters and grow in authority through the challenge of Corona interrupting everything.
You stand out and you belong, know that every day, for Christ chose you and interrupted that life for something so much better
She had us bring our true feelings to the Lord and ask Him what he wants to do about it. As I prayed, a deep blue washed over my eyes, and I knew what it meant.
God gave me the phrase one day in Indonesia…
His Word and Go Deeper
I’ve been meaning to write a blog about this since, but after going deeper than I could have ever imagined through work, solitude, and 40 days in the desert of Utah (much of the time spent cleaning houseboats), I am glad I waited so I could share much more.
What a better place than the stripped glorious desert pruning, refining. I AM HERE HE SAYS. Day by day going deeper has to be enough. I’m honestly scared as I sit outside alone, with my loving, godly parents inside, that it is going to just be me out here
His divine hand large is on me and over this room. My parents sweetly cover this room with prayer
Stamped with memories of pure family togetherness, He stamps me with blessing
It’s like hearing the sound of silence for the first time. It’s like I’m doing some kind of growing up here
“The Pearl”
There is a pearl sitting at the bottom of the surface beneath the water
You swim down to pick it up
You bring it to the world and out of it explodes a forcefield of colored light
Go deeper through bringing yourself honestly to the Lord, asking hard questions, and learning perseverance through trials (James 1).
“Snorkeling”
I take in where I’m at but not in fullness. I snorkel in fullness tho, seeking every cavern floating upside down, I forgot how easy it is to float, bubbles rising to the top, my feet facing the sky
Snorkeling became a symbol for going deeper with God in Indonesia. You are submerging yourself in His waters. Everything on the shallow end is quicker and easier to see. Any of God is beautiful to know, but everything as you go deeper is more fascinating, vibrant, and streaming with life. It is much harder to swim deeper, even scarier as you hold your breathe for longer and do not know what you will discover. But if you are bold enough, you will go deeper, and you will not regret it.
In the deep resides WONDER
There is resistance to swim deeper in God and in His Word and in His Spirit and in His Way. It is scary, against the grain, not easy, takes time. But trust Him, do it. His waters are eternal life, here and now
My love is sufficient for you
No requirement out of me. I think I was protected in this day after writing down my testimony which defeats the power of the evil one. But I know I cannot really internalize when hard things happen that should make me cry like the others were tonight (after spending hours with a 19 year old prostitute in a karaoke bar). But I will turn to the Lord, intercede, see what He has to say
Be careful how you measure yourself; measure yourself by My Love
I know that’s not God’s voice nor even my own, and it drains you for a minute, but you have to ask Christ to stop the self-deprecating thoughts, and he will. You have to remember truth and then you can step into joy of loving others
Let your sermon be My Voice (supernaturally with love that surpasses earth)
You are the One who gives me strength when I don’t have it of my self. Do the same tomorrow. Amen to the Lord who saves
Did you know that you don’t have to do anything? That though you haven’t spent extended time separated with me like you hoped, you actually have been inviting me into each day and letting me flow out of you? Did you know that? That is why you have peace right now. I am with you and in you
Like seriously Only God is with me, and He plays every single role in my life
“Sinners and Saints” what a book to read right now as I invite God unto cleaning a bathroom like that one crippled saint
Hannah at the cabin is no longer the same person. She’s been made new, she is also in a stage of life that she cannot understand
Did I come all the way here to discover that what I want and what my soul needs the most is community like on the Race – not independence?
“The Cove Light Show”
I’m having my Katie Lee cold pool moment. Like God imprints me on and with the landscape wondering
Just here, I just am
Not a soul I know knows where I am right now, but the desert does
I feel as though Jesus praying in the garden of Gethsemane could just show up right there in that green sagebrush
Resting in Him. I have no partner in crime but him
And when He performed a cove light show, and the fruits of hot difficult labor, swelling aching feet, float and caress the weightless water. I just, I just love Him
I’m not in a rush right now. I’m not striving to fit in this community here; I’m striving for this while I can have it
Someday I’ll work for justice and break down spiritual walls for the lost in Jesus Name.
Today, I do the work, the only work that does not elicit burden, of knowing God
I’ve never felt lighter than I do right now
But Jesus Christ, I pray you would save all these people
His Word
For years, numerous people on independent occasions have spoken over me themes of living water, deep roots, steady faithfulness, trees, wonder, and fruitfulness. During quarantine, one of my squad leaders encouraged me as someone who embodies this verse…
“Blessed is the one…Whose delight is in the law of the LORD, and who meditates on his law day and night. That person is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither – whatever they do prospers” – Psalm 1
As a deer pants for water my soul plants for you (and your Word, longest I’ve spent with out you for many years, I need you by my side) -Psalm 42:1
When the sun is like a heartbeat, and the path a whirlwind, the trees reach wherever the heart beat breathes and will not stay to wither in the dark
May I cherish and follow every bit of Your light not withering
I am shaken without Him, I am SO dependent on Him all of Him
“The Waterfall”
Under all the pain and confusion, hard work and intrusion, desolation and improving, is the God who makes me golden, beyond valuable and ready to coat others with love, with His love, that I don’t have of myself
Where I may feel sometimes like a volcano or sometimes like a dry, boring to them, desert land, He says I am a waterfall
He says He is proud of me, though I struggle to believe it. Lord assure me of it. You say those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be filled
I found a hunger for the Holy Bible that was jumping off the page unlike ever before while I was on the Race. Psalm 1 shows that the Word of God is largely how we grow deeper in the faith and prosper.
I sit on a rooftop sprinkled with rain, the lightning is near, and I know God is my refuge my portion and my cup
He makes a way in the wilderness. I believe in You. I don’t want to miss your Presence
The anthem of my heart Christ Jesus crucified. I feel it: He wants to do something in me not just through me
Susi changed my life when she said it, that’s it, no matter what, go to God. Here, He gives me a heart for everyone and shows me where to act
God gives all the chance for eternal life; may I have hope for all in my heart and hand the burden of it all to Jesus who bore it and overcame the world for me and for us
Thank goodness, the 1 true God breaks through blockages to get to us, when we couldn’t get to Him ourselves
“The Triangle of Light”
I see a triangle of light and color splitting through the darkness. It’s a straight pathway for me to duck through, to be completely protected in the world, and it ends getting to that complete Kingdom space
“The firefly’s path”
The flicker of a being
The uncertain path occasionally lit
The typical or untypical location’s surprise
What my journey is like, finding the Lord
All over all throughout
Little flashes of Him so wonderous and joyous
They show me He’s with me on what seems the unconventional way
Sometimes I feel in the dark
Sometimes I have to trust
the path
Sometimes I have to guess
the path
But He doesn’t stop reminding me
He’s bringing me home
On the narrow, majestic path through treatrous and garden like waters he shines and reflects down
Leaving me sometimes to be still
Close enough you could gasp
Knowing I can’t go wrong
If only I continue to look
And to trust
Even emerging out of the pitch black distance
He’ll never cease to glow
The Bible is alive and breathing, endless in its feeding and transformative and truth-bearing power (The Bible is so uniquely and historically impressive – I’m reading chapters of Josh McDowell on that right now. He refers to these verses on the Bible’s power – Hebrews 4:12, 2 Timothy 3:17, 1 Peter 1:23).
Revealing nature of scripture – Colossians 1, the Gospel like a tree and personified, legitimately growing and reaching further throughout the whole world
It all amounts to something, everything you see in the Kingdom of God
“Shadow of my Father’s Wings”
What I learned the past few days is that God is building my character here – I thought I came just for pleasure and evangelism, but more so for growth. Yesterday on the verge of tears, I wanted to quit again, my feet groaned for relief. But like the sun just went behind a miniscule cloud amid an expansive sky for only a minute, and, as Ruach, the breathe of God continued to blow, I went in the shelter and sanctuary of my room under the shadow of my Father’s wings (Psalm 91). In my selfishness and privilege, a couple chapters like 1 Cor 10 he led me to, “do everything to please others,” “don’t grumble,” “don’t make anyone stumble,” “consider it pure joy when you face trials of many kinds.” And “do it all for the glory of God” “like you are serving Christ”
Convict me of my pride every minute
Gossip is the devil
Sometimes meekness wins
Romans 7: nevertheless that sin might be recognized as sin…Who will rescue me from this body that is subject to death? Thanks be to God, who delivers me through Jesus Christ our Lord!
“The Desert’s Echo”
Why does the desert echo?
Every word we say, every sound we make, has a repeating effect
The earth responds to and imitates its stewards
It’s like my own Amphitheatre
Does nature mock us in the echo, or does it compound our beauty?
Funny enough, I’m listening to a podcast about simplicity of speech. To listen more and let myself be misunderstood. Lord give me discernment. I was made to be a messenger, but will I be interrupted cus people want to be heard. I don’t need to be heard.
Love speaks louder in the Kingdom. And love bears all things
What pleases God and all of nature is Worship
During quarantine, in starting a 28 page document I created as an offense and defense for my faith to demolish every stronghold/argument with divine power (2 Cor 10:4), I asked God where to start. What came to mind…
Draw from the living water
I found that the theme of living water throughout the entirety of Scripture is an explanation for the Trinity, God 3 in 1, and a clear place where Jesus claims to be God (See scriptures – John 7:37-39, John 4, Isaiah 12:3, Jeremiah 2:13, Psalm 1, Ezekiel 47, Isaiah 44:3, Revelation 21:6).
And then, one night at Lake Powell, I had an hour-long debate with an atheist over the phone. I had never met him before. He heard from my friend about the document I created and wanted to call me for an apologetic conversation.
I left the conversation amazed that I could hold my own with someone way more knowledgeable. God sustained me and gave the words to say from a place of peace and conviction and love and security, which I can’t say was the truth in the past.
Drawing from the living water, all is supplied without worry.
A windy path somewhere wonderful, every seed you plant has a ripple effect all over, it drops and ripples far
(if you want to discuss any of your questions or objections to the Christian faith without judgment, I’d love to talk to you, contact me <3)
“The Faucet”
No wonder this next stage of my life is here in the desert. It is where streams of living water in dry and parched land originally became my refreshment of joy and wonder. Now may the water in the desert be a constant reminder to me of God’s faithfulness and power to bring life to every situation. May the fruits of the Spirt flow more freely out of me and may I be that faucet bringing Christ’s life and the Father’s hold and the Spirit’s power to many ppl and situations
…as they are designed, dignified, and marked with a value worth dying for
The Fred’s of the world, the refreshingly nonconformist (a mechanic I worked with)
You love, not force. Made me excited for WR America and serving domestically
The joy and shock of her weary face couldn’t believe the act of kindness and love, that she was ran after to be recognized. Well Christ Jesus literally does that for me every single day when, like Shawn said, I did nothing to deserve it
“His Love like Nectar”
My love, my salvation, my nectar will find you in the end (hummingbird)
His love is kind forbearing unjudmental not self-seeking, close
I can just be myself without fear with God. Cus his arms are grace
He counsels me. And restores my brokenness and perspective and moment
He doesn’t have other concerns or obligations; His most important obligation is to be with me as I am
And if your religion is not that, I don’t want any part of it
How small a part of life we make our devotion to God
Another night (or many) in the desert…
When your body starts to blend in with the red sand and dirt, you feel a part of it, breathing off of it
How is there an impression of your rays bursting through the sky without clarity?
And the red sun went down. I could look the Sun and God straight in the eye when the smoke of Jesus Christ let me
Worshipping under layers of vibrant piercing stars and the echo of human light along the waters of Utah
“The telescope”
Do you see the canyons I build for you?
I have eons more for you
See yourself looking through a telescope that widens to glorious stars
I have so much to show you
See all these people coming to line up as you show them the galaxies and the more God has
(What!! Weeks later the coolest ministry moment was under the stars, showing the more God has for someone)
Moreover, the Christian friend/coworker, who was an answer to prayer, said the Holy Spirit is strong on me. And she asked me to do my favorite thing: share stories and talk about the Holy Spirit. I explained how the past years of my life have been drowned and wrecked by the Holy Spirit due to where and with whom God has placed me and led me. This has been a vivid fulfillment of when the woman leader on my missions trip to Nicaragua spoke John 7:38 over me.
Psalm 63: You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you; I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you, in a dry and parched land where there is no water. I have seen you in the sanctuary (I have) and beheld your power and your glory (I have)… I will praise you as long as I live (Yes Lord)…I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods…I sing in the shadow of your wings (shade means abundantly more in the desert heat which is the context of where the Bible was written!)
It was incredible to reflect on all this in the desert…
A Healing Sanctuary of Sorts
Coming Home is Coming to You
Lost in life, found in You
In the place where the need for water is overbearing
Dancing grass pondering waters and canyon heartbeat, the landscape together
The creative and life-giving source that is water through any climate
Somehow the water touches much more ground today, the gulley is full, the middle is deep. And when I swirl to the ice cold, it freezes me into life, and the warmth of the top rescues
Why is it water that Baptizes? Sure, it makes us clean, but it’s more than that. Its consistency doesn’t stick nor slide, it lightly engulfs in mercy and moves on. It changes based on its environment. It does what natural order tells it to. It divides canyons and covers oceans. God divides our souls and covers them in clarity. Takes on our dirt and brings joyful clarity
This morning I heard something along the lines of wash me (just let Him determine the focus for the day) and I was like really more sins that need to be washed away? Well yes, but God washing away our sins is more than that – it not only cleanses your dirt but rejuvenates your soul, refreshed with joy wonder and grace in a sweet place
“The slot canyon“
the power of the water smoothes and searches the canyon rock for billions of years and hundreds of thousands of feet deep:
the impact of the Spirit’s waters
in some melody, some dance, the stream forms movement on rock walls
the small beginning turns overbearingly lasting and big
I found that the need for God as my Sustainer is even more overbearing
Rejoice in the promises that have been made, rejoice in Me the author and perfecter and protector of your Faith (Hebrews 12:2)
Maybe fear is only to do with the loss of my idols, and this is why fear is a liar. Because a loss of an idol is not death, but life in Jesus Christ of Nazareth
Give me a loose grip on anything that is not You
Psalm 78: he struck the rock, and water rushed out. Can he not supply all things??? He saw our character from old, how was he kind enough to give us His????
He is my complete joy
Looking on a map, perennial stream – That’s who God is
“But oh nature!”
But oh nature! I do not worship you. You are just corruptible dust that God does love, but void of any truth, dry of life without you God
From nature comes no satisfaction for my soul
The desert’s beauty doesn’t quench the longing, it only speaks to it
Only God can heal the human heart. Just like the canyons echoed my sound today, the water reflected my image. Nature is objective to me. God is subjective
Nature is not enough. God is
And the broken world needs my Lord’s, who is in me, help
So I don’t escape, I need to let the Father’s voice be greater than all else
As I withdraw like Jesus did, let it be for encountering you Father
Worship you for the beauty, but take part in the battle for which you came and won
Lectio Divina
Bored? Read James, let it cut you like a double-edged sword
God led me into the ancient practice of Lectio Divina as the vehicle on the Race where I’d go deeper through His Word. It is basically meditating on a phrase/verse that sticks out to you in your reading over and over and seeing what the Holy Spirit has to say about it.
After reading a book and listening to a sermon that suggested Lectio Divina, I decided I should probably try it.
Like the sermon said, you go DEEP and become ROOTED through meditating on scripture and knowing His Spirit. Slow intimacy I’m called into and love for His Word – it’s profound, like a great art piece that uncovers itself backward and forward, you learn the story
Camping with local Indonesians from the English program, from the phrase “Jesus was troubled,” I reflected…
My soul is troubled. Should I say God save me from this? No it was for this very hour that I came. I lay by my Muslim friend in my tent and tell her about what I just took away from reading the Bible: Even my Savior went through being troubled, how much more can I love Him
Power begins the phrases of the Bible; they hold the weight of the biggest truths
It took a simple 5 mins away to have this deep moment with God
Example of other phrases I meditated on are I belong forever in God’s family and They looked upon the one they had pierced
Especially with Jesus stories, reflecting on the weight of phrases like “Jesus wept” (the Creator of the galaxies burdened like us and for us) can blow your mind. It gives you deep insight into the empathy and compassion of our God and profound truths found in Scripture that we can internalize and imagine.
Jesus, 40 days fasting, in dry heat visible to the eye, dry mouthed, zapped of energy, breathing hard, encountered evil and did not let it overcome him. I follow someone who was stronger than I’ll ever have to be. And for the hungry souls starving physically or spiritually may they depend on you. May you be our satisfying food and drink demolishing evil
I have been exalted in position and the cards I’ve been dealt so I must humble myself to see it as it is
Then they all went home, but Jesus went to the Mount of Olives – Jesus does what His Father tells Him, even if it means being different or doing something scary and out of the ordinary
*** I included the sermon I wrote in Malaysia that walks through how God trusts us and the process of Lectio Divina in more depth at the end of this blog ***
“Too good to be true?”
My friend said a couple days back, over the phone, don’t you think it sounds too good to be true (that Jesus came into this world as God in human form, took us into His family, and saves us, forgetting all our faults)?
Well, Yes
But don’t you think the reality of the world is too sad and bleak to be true sometimes (racism, Corona, genocide, starvation, rape)?
Well, it’s both
And some day I’ll see the fullness of the former; someday it won’t be so hard to know the ultimate reality of goodness and the person of love’s power
Someday it’ll be mighty and frictionless
I’ll wait and I’ll pray and I’ll discern and I’ll share and I’ll listen and I’ll disciple and I’ll pray and I’ll serve and I’ll love and I’ll adventure and I’ll wonder and I’ll heal and I’ll hope until that very day when I see the one who saved me
Someday all of that longing will be quenched and love won’t pass and fellowship won’t pass but it will hold deeply in my heart and my experience and I won’t forget all He has done and His abounding care
I’ll live, I’ll truly live without fettering
I’ll see love face to face submerging me with colorful light, unending, never failing
Keep me, and never hold back
Lord
Music suggestions to go deeper:
Shepherd by Upper Room Worship – Never going back by Will Reagan – New Country by Amanda Cook – Peace album by Bethel – Anticipation EP by Bryan & Katie Torwalt
“So Holy Spirit, what next?”
Worship me with all your being, everything you are doing from loving me with your mind reading that textbook to expressing me in your creativity to knowing my Words to singing in joy
Let go
Bow down and pray. I will never fail you
You set my feet into motion
“God is the dream maker and vision caster” – Hannah (my World Race friend and a yoga instructor – check out her website, it is awesome, and she is one of the people who inspires me the most)
I just want you to seek Me 1st, you doing that? Okay then don’t worry about it
“however, I consider my life worth nothing to me, my only aim is to finish the race and complete the task the Lord Jesus has given me – the task of testifying the good news of God’s grace” – Acts 20
***The sermon I planned to give in Malaysia…
“God trusts you!”
Hello, I am Hannah, I am from the United States.
I have loved being a part of you church and have experienced the power of God in deeper ways than I ever have. So, thank you for welcoming us.
So, have you ever felt like people don’t trust you? Even within your church community
I have
Many people on the World Race are strong in their faith and powerful in their giftings. I struggle with comparison. And if I mess up, will they trust me again?
Do they trust me to take on responsibility? Do they trust me as a spiritual leader and worker for the Kingdom?
I doubt myself and the enemy wants me to feel that way – To hold me back from giving myself completely and boldly to Jesus of Nazareth, from using my gifts, from taking on responsibility to serve Him, and from spreading the Kingdom of God.
Recently God has been speaking over me that it doesn’t matter if people trust you.
What matters is that God trusts us! And has entrusted us with so much.
God literally trusted us to hold his Presence inside of us.
He trusted us with the Holy Spirt and the finishing the great commission to make disciples of all nations.
With the Holy Spirit inside of us, God trusts us and will use us no matter our doubt, our story, or our lack of giftings. Like Moses’ stutter, He will even use our weakness and our brokenness.
We just have to be willing.
Turn with me to 1 Timothy 1:12-14 (could someone read in both languages)
-God considers us trustworthy and appointed us to his service.
In verse 15, Paul calls himself the worst of sinners, yet God uses him to advance the Gospel across many nations and to write much of the New Testament.
No matter what you have done or how you fall short. The Holy Spirit inside of you means Jesus trusted you with carrying God’s presence to this world. How powerful is that?
God led me to Joshua 1
Turn with me to Joshua 1:9 (could someone read in both languages)
We do not have anything to fear. God is with us, and the Holy Spirit is inside of us wherever we go.
Joshua 1:3
“I will give you every place where you set your foot”
God trusts us to serve with him and be a part of His family every place we step foot or go!
Whether it is at your workplace, in your family, walking the streets of SP (the town we were in), or, for us, traveling across the world.
On the next page of Joshua someone wrote in my Bible 2 Timothy 3:16-17.
Turn with me there.
-So it is Scripture that makes us thoroughly equipped for every good work
I wanted to leave you guys with a practical way to equip yourself for the work God has trusted you with.
It is an ancient church practice called Lectio Divina involving the reading of scripture.
-You start with just sitting in God’s presence
-Choose a passage in scripture to read, and read it 3 times out loud
-Then notice a specific phrase that stand out to you, then repeat the phrase in your head
-Then ask the Holy Spirit what He wants to speak to you through that phrase
-Then just sit in His presence
So to conclude, let’s do one together.
Turn with me to John 21:3-6. I am going to read this out loud 3 times.
Now close your eyes, and repeat this phrase in your head “Jesus stood on the shore”
Can you see Jesus Christ standing on the shore seeing you and waiting for you to come to him?
Can you imagine the overflow and breakthrough that is coming if we cast our nets like the disciples did? If we follow and obey Jesus’ leading
Thank you guys, God bless you all
“The Father is proud”
Prolonged was the word God spoke this morning over the day
Even in the smallest of things if only I harken to Him, He cares for me, cares to prepare for me
Even if other people more mighty than me endure much more, I made it through
Even if my attitude still fails me, on the prolonged journey Christ becomes my strength
When I’m at my wits end, persevering on an adventure. When you have no choice, the goal sets in and you keep going
Exhausted and sinking in the draining sand, you keep going
You don’t stop letting the smallest bits of Him out
You see the end in sight, slowly approaching, a glimmer of hope that you did it
And only by Him can you do hard things
And catch your mind and your ego for the cause of Christ and honor to the only one who truly can sustain a soul like mine
Wildly mine
Even if I have a long way to go, I’d become more like you every day Lord of love
And let me tell you even when you don’t deserve it or feel it, the Father is proud of you
31 miles a 4 day backpack trip in the desert
Even when my flesh and strength may fail me, you are the strength of my heart (Psalm 73:26)
