O u t o f h i d i n g

O u t   o f   h i d i n g

Peace bring it all to peace

The earth cries out in disappointed harmony

The trees speak and creep through the waters of your person 

Today sitting at the reflected pond is different than before and different than the year before

 

It’s like nothing you’ve ever done before, yet everything you’ve done before piled up in one place in front of a multiplied number of souls

It’s like hearing that one soul’s story and struggle, seeing them loved and valuable, and needing to pray and care for them, but with a multiplied number of souls 

Abundant moments

 

You’re trusted with little, faithful with little, and then you are given more

To offer yourself as a living sacrifice, to face the uncomfortability of being known, and abandon all to follow

It’s like coming out of hiding 

 

The beautiful hiding with the Lord

You needed to be hidden in the Lord, hidden from yourself, hidden from others, that He alone could see you first, clothe you in the secret place, and then send you

 

You couldn’t steward giftings until you knew it wasn’t about you, but His Grace

Dying to yourself, doing what’s hard, doing what gives all of you, and panting for the Lord

 

Speaking and being seen

Having to daily do what puts your stomach to nervousness, like being in the spotlight and being trusted with responsibility 

 

Leading with two souls unified, full of zeal and mutual love, compassion, and laughter

There is a humility I haven’t had before to receive constructive words given not as a blow but as necessary

for I know I’m not qualified. I know I’m not enough without Him. I know it’s only by Him that I’m wonderful and that people are blessed to be deeply loved by me (like Ronny said today)

 

You see me? Do I see me? You may think I’m a trusted leader, you may think I lack much

But i’m seeing you Gap23

i see each and everyone of you as entirely beyond, vast in the scope of who you are, with depths that only God could search

i see a generation with no regard for superficiality or false pride 

i see hearts hungry and submitted to the Lord

i see authenticity, intrigue, and the Spirit of the Living God imprinting on your souls 

i see chain breakers and a sort of joy and energy too often lost by people in a wearied world without eyes on the King

i see willingness, so much beauty and light in every single one of you

i see the story of the Redeemed 

 

…to not be ashamed nor fear.

for the Lord has called you, equipped you, known every part of you and said it is good.

He asserts “And I am good. Know and trust in that – I AM good. I AM yours, and you beloved are Mine. There is no fear in perfect love.”

I am getting to sit with these people and have beautiful, deep conversations about the only One who really matters to me.

I’m getting to pray Kingdom, like that one night over tearing souls releasing forgiveness and walking into God’s freedom.

I’m getting to see the hand of God, even when I had to quarantine. 

Before the squad arrived, I had a few symptoms. So we drove to get a rapid test. No spots open for days. If we didn’t get a negative test that day, we would have had to train our squad without the leadership team.

We left the all-booked clinic. Drew walked into a gas station. The Spirit told Him “call that clinic back, and ask if they had any cancellations.” They had 2 cancellations which almost never happens! The nurse said “you know Who to depend on”, pointing up to the sky! The test was negative. 

I don’t know what tomorrow squad leading is going to look like. But I know that so far at training camp, God has brought me out of great fear and into such calling, appointing, and love. Squad Gap 23 is more beautiful than I could have imagined, and we are just getting started.